All I Ever Wanted

The last day of school was today.  And it's been creeping up on me all week.  It hit me like a punch to the stomach.   Deep breath.  Don't cry.  Evening comes, sitting on the terraced steps of the backyard: a warm, rich feeling.  All is right. 

Next year, I don't know where we'll be.  That's the truth of it all.  Because, right now, there's a very good chance we'll be moving in August or moving in November/December...during the holidays.  You know how it is.  My God.  And I so love our life here. 

I don't know if next year Charlotte will have her graduation "tea" at her current school, then come home, here to our home, and play for the summer.  A summer filled with a purple plastice elephant pool, caladiums and lots of ferns, trips to the park, buckets of pop-ice and bubbles, princess camp, speech where's it been tried and true, swimming at Noni & Hoppy's...pony rides, play dates, Lakebottom and then we're ready for kindergarten...if we were going to stay in Columbus, it would be private school.  She would go with the majority of the children she's grown up with into St. Luke School. 

And life would go on at the park.  Ruby would go through the preschool, with our friends, with families we know, with teachers we love.  Ruby would have dance, and swim and soccer and tennis and whatever her heart desired.  She'd have playdates with the siblings of Charlotte's friends.  Adam would continue working 12 miles from home.  We'd meet for lunch and I'd ride out to the job...for whatever reason, to say hello.  Our yard would mature.  The fruits of our labor would unfold...all around us.

Keeper would be brave on walks.  Our dear neighbors would watch our girls grow up.  A sense of community.  We have it here.  We are fully entrenched in Columbus, Georgia.

I love our life.  I LOVE our LIFE.  I wouldn't change a thing about it.  Not a thing.  Except, I might pause it, here, right now, the girls are on a "date" with their daddy to McDonald's.  I vacuumed and tidied with my ipod in my pocket and my earbuds in. 

Both girls are already my big girls.  Well, when I snuggle Ruby she still tells me she's mommy's baby.  I can't believe Charlotte will be in preschool 5 days a week next year.  And Ruby will be going to Mommy's Morning Out.  My heart hurts.  This time has been the best time of my life.  What in the world will I do with myself next year?  Be there.  Be involved.  Help the teachers.  Serve on the board.  Run.  Yoga!  I am looking forward to more yoga... 

Motherhood is all I ever wanted.  I'm fulfilled. 

I have two brilliant, talented, gorgeous, kind and amazing daughters. My husband is my best friend.

And that...all of that...will go with me wherever we go.